Posted by Dubya on March 28, 2001, at 23:32:32
In reply to Re: I SUCK, posted by PhoenixGirl on March 28, 2001, at 16:09:00
I still don't realize how valuable my existence is, people really like me left, right and centre yet, I think I am a JOKE. I may be SMART or STUPID but, I RARELY seem to BE ABLE to APPLY MYSELF TO ANYTHING REQUIRING EFFORT/FOCUS. ARGH, I am complaining like a SPOILED BRAT but, I don't UNDERSTAND why I AM NEVER SUCCESSFUL in ANY WAY. SUCCESS not meaning money but rather, PROGRESS. I am screwed, I can't tell my doc that I am trying to hurt myself by hurting my wrists or taking more meds but yet, I want to get better, I don't know what I AM doing to myself. I bet you that NOBODY is the MESSAGE BOARD wants to be me. I have a family living in a nice home, driving really nice cars, me living like a "BRAT" and I don't want to have that image so I work my but off to tell myself that I can do things for myself yet, I am SCREWED IN THE HEAD.
poster:Dubya
thread:57521
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