Posted by mike123 on February 5, 2001, at 10:47:01
Hello,
I am 25 and for the past 10yrs I have always felt a sense of lonelyness or sadness. I had gone through my highschool and college years always being alone, and never dating or feeling like I fit in. I have a few friends and when we goto bars or other social situations I always feel out of place and rarely talk to anyone, and feel very unconfortable approaching people. In recently I have done a lot of reflecting and when I am in a situation seeing other couples or listening people discuss past experiences that I never encountered is very upsepting/depressing. It seems most people look back at the times they had in Highschool and College as the best times of there life, unfortunately I feel the complete opposite and everytime I hear people talk about it I only get more sad.
Recently (3weeks ago) after spending the winter break alone at school (i returned to school for my masters), I became very depressed and this term I am doing extremely poor. My mind is constantly filled with thoughts of lonelyness and missed experiences. After almost being fired from work, and doing extremely poor in classes, i saw a doctor. He put me on Effexor, I so far I have done the 37mg for a week then now i'm up to 75mg. I have noticed nothing from the drug other than side effects, which have all gone away.
I basicly am wondering what I can expect from antidepressants, deep down inside I am praying that it will be a magic pill that will change my outlook on life, and rid me of the sense of not fitting in, and possibly lead me to meeting a person that I can share my feelings with, and no longer be alone. On the other hand, in the past 10yrs I've learn to accept the posibility that I dont fit in and i'm destin to be a bachlor/alone the rest of my life.
Please advise, getting very discouraged.
poster:mike123
thread:53346
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