Posted by annie8 on December 2, 2000, at 14:47:17
In reply to Suicide.....on Effexor, posted by Jen111111111 on November 15, 2000, at 21:38:14
hi there, I would really suggest you go see a therapist, and begin to share your pain with someone, maybe you already are, if so continue, you could also seek out a support group in your area, either for grief or for family of murder victims, I know they have them, a support group for grief would be terrific, holding the pain inside is why you feel so terrible, it is time to reach out for support with other people who really understand....
your in my thoughts if that helps any, I am sending you love through the air..take care,
annie
> I'm having overwhelming thoughts...I don't want to do it. I have a good life. I just can't get past this depression. I have horrible thoughts. My father was murdered 3 years ago. Some bitch set him on fire. This is when it all started. It was horrible. He lived for a week after the fact. That made it even worse. I saw him in the burn unit and completly broke down. They even spelled his name wrong (strange how we notice things). Numerous things...seeing him so swollen, burned, in pain. I hadn't spoken to him in 10 years prior. He left us and I completey shut him off. I feel guilt for not contacting him. But, he gave us up... He went into convulsions when I spoke to him. I had to endure the court system. Thankfully she is in jail for life. I was in college at the time. My professors pretty much passed me without thought. The worst part was when my aunt (his sister) had him cremated. Finished it off.
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> I need help....can't get past this. I'm on Effexor, Not a high enough dose. I love my life, but am consumed with thoughts of death.
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