Posted by Rzip on October 28, 2000, at 18:51:41
In reply to I WANT DR. BOB! I WANT DR. BOB!, posted by Rzip on October 28, 2000, at 18:26:34
This might sound ridiculous. I was reading over the earlier posts in 1998 and 1999. Dr. Bob would constantly respond to the posts, and draw happy faces on them. And, sign off with "Good Luck" and such. I WANT THAT ON MY POSTS ALSO.
All I can think about day in and day out is Dr. Bob and Psycho-Babble. I wish Toby (from 1998, 1999 posts) is still here. I want to talk to Dr. Bob on the Internet. I literally was having anxiety and screaming attacks as I read his responses in the earlier posts. I want him to talk to me TOO. I think he is very funny and witty. I want him to write to me and draw happy faces.
I wish I discovered PB in 1998 or 1999. That way I get to correspond with Dr. Bob. Ahhhhhhhh! (That is to let off stress)
This is bad. Why can't I have feelings for someone in the real world, in real time. That is what I am working on in my therapy. Help! I thought this service would get me to reach out. But, I fell back into this internal world AGAIN. I have been here so many times before. First come the fantasies, then the depression and the reality check, then the suicide idealizations. I guess as long as I do not do anything bad to society, I'll be o.k.
Well, if I am going to do well on my Biochemistry midterm next week, better start studying...fatty acids and beta oxidation.
I know Shar, Greg, and Racer...I am going into my internal world again AND again. When will I learn. Why am I always so immature and you guys are so knowledgeable and Mature. The difference in time and age, I guess. Ok, I am logging off. Just had to get that off my chest. Whew!
- Rzip
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