Posted by Billb on October 26, 2000, at 13:17:18
In reply to Re: clonazepam, etc.(Re: AndrewB, S.D., and JohnL) » Billb, posted by S.D. on October 23, 2000, at 21:19:59
SD, thanks for all of the great info. I appreciate it.
> Can you tell us about one or two positive experiences you've had since it kicked in? I think many people would get a boost from reading something like that.
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[Positive experiences, general: feeling calmer around other people and feeling like they actually want to talk to me. Feeling calmer but not zonked, like when I have tried xanax. Xanax sure killed the anxiety but also seemed to subdue the personality.Positive experiences, specific: Because I feel more like "myself" in public, I'm more relaxed and more open to BE myself and let others see my flaws, defects, ect. Because of this increased openess, lightning up, etc., I'm more fun to be around. Not bragging but, lets face it, I can't be much fun when I'm tense and afraid to open my mouth to avoid committing ANY mistakes or social blunders.
In part because of the above, I have developed a few close relationships with friends in the last few months and these new deeper, trusting relationships are priceless to me.
Professionally, definate improvements in speaking up and taking a lead (less afraid to show that I am human and make mistakes). But these profesional gains pale in comparision with the few personal relationships I have developed in the last few months, and will have forever, because I was able to break through that outer protective shell and develop a deeper and trusting relationship with a few special people.
Thanks again for all of your help. The Pdoc hunt continues.
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