Posted by Tori on October 21, 2000, at 9:25:26
In reply to Mild manic-depressive?, posted by bee on October 19, 2000, at 11:40:35
I have been depressed/had major depressive episodes since I was 18 years old (I clearly remembering waking up one morning and feeling exhausted and having a dreaded feeling about the future -- just out of the blue!!!).
I'm 26 now and after being hospitalized in March for a suicide attempt the psych dx me with bipolar aff disorder (have no idea what type it is).
What I was doing was:
hating the world
driving aggressively
extremely, extremely agitated, irrritable, annoyed
if not above, then extremely depressed, suicidal
lethargic, atypical, treatment resistantAfter he put me on lamctal 300 mg a day the aggressive driving and irritability, etc. lowered or almost stopped (I still get pissed off ... see now, the difference is BEFORE if somebody cut me off I would chase them down the road, then DWELL on it for the rest of the day; now I get annoyed, give them the finger, then go on my merry way, not taking it with me for the rest of the day).
I'm also on parnate 40 mg a day for about five weeks now and on the fourth day the extreme suicidal thoughts/ideations (spelling?) disappeared.
I never really know if I am bipolar, even thoughI have been dx with it. All I know is that when I went through withdrawal to start the parnate (washout period) I went COMPLETELY MANIC, crying one moment, irritable the next, giddy, then wanting sex (boyfriend wasn't complaining,LOL), made a huge purchase on sears.ca one night of about 1000.00 (returned most of it - does that classify as being manic???).
I guess I'm confused. I also want to get my thyroid re-checked and show my GP the articles that have been posted here. I still suffer from lethargy, gained FIFTEEN POUNDS in the two weeks I was going through withdrawal and the weight is not coming off; I am too tired to exercise, I am not hungry during the day......?????? I just don't feel like I am being treated effectively.
:-) Tori
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