Posted by Sheryl on October 19, 2000, at 9:05:53
I write sometimes to express how I feel and I would like to share one of my writings with you. Some of you might relate to this. This is one of many of my passages............
A Statement of feeling
The pain feels devastating. I feel the knives
being stuck in through my chest and right into my
heart. Thy stomach quenches and curls tighter into
knotts. My sole feels empty as I lost my mirror image.
An image so close to mine it could have been me in another body. I've only known this image for a short time,but feels forever.
Little do I know why Im scared,nor do I know that I feel lost. So much beauty within causes a strong liking. The enormous amount of beauty on the outside causes a strong attraction.
It was as if I had found myself,got scared,and threw it away. Why does my evil side always come out? Why must it torture me until I die?
I feel anger and hatred all to myself. The pain never stops. It just moves from place to place. I rage in anger of my past. I rage to the way I am haunted. Life betrays my every move. It feels like a game of chess that can never be won. I look into the mirror and see the devil he lurks in my soul as he see's through my eyes,speaks through my mouth, and hears through my ears. I am possesed and hate it.
My brain no longer functions normal. I can't think, eat, or sleep. Im messed up and can't help it.Nobody wants a nobody,not even my family. As the violent Femms would say, "how can I explain my personal pain?" I can't explain, only feel the pain.
I guess this is bye to my mirror image for I know what thee is thinking and I know what thee feels. Bye-Bye image.....................
poster:Sheryl
thread:46748
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