Posted by pullmarine on October 14, 2000, at 18:34:37
In reply to Re: ''Hey, Pullmarine''.. to Pullmarine and Racer, posted by Lisa Simpson on October 12, 2000, at 6:28:10
> Hi Lisa,
Your post was very beautiful, and I enjoyed it very much.
> < < ... everything you've posted sounds so -- je ne sais quois... I'd hate to think that someone so stimulating had left the world of his own volition, and out of finding life "painful, boring, and I'd rather not have to go through it." > >
> In reply to this paragraph, I'll paraphrase r. w. emmerson: In life, You have the choice between peace of mind or searching for the truth. Choose which you will, you can never have both.> And then I read the above, and I so totally agree with it. I find it truly staggering that someone with such intelligence and ... oh, I don't know the word I'm looking for... but somone who obviously has such amazing thought processes should want to relieve the world of his presence. And that there are obviously people close to him that don't seem to give a shit if he does.
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Unfortunatly, too many people want me to live, which is an annoyance and a hindrance. As for the first point, I think my thought processes, which are critical, cynical, and analitical are at the basis of my hatred of the experience which people call life.> I'd love to have the chance of meeting with you Pullmarine, although I know that's not possible.
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'L'impossible n'est pas francais' , meaning there is no reason why we couldn't meet. I actually have a dream of getting together with a whole bunch of us in an abandoned village in mexico for a couple of weeks. who knows, maybe one day i'll organize that. (or maybe a ski trip somewhere.)> I had a severe asthma attack the Christmas before last, had to be intubated, and as a result there was a period of time when there was no oxygen going to my brain, the result of which there was minor damage, and I can no longer think the way I used to be able to. I used to be a really hot PC network support analyst, but now I have to really struggle my way through technical problems which used to come easy. I wish, Pullmarine, I had your clarity of thought, and I wish there was something I could say to cheer you up that didn't sound thoughtless, wet, stupid, careless.
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Sorry to hear about the asthma and its consequences. But you must know that the human brain is incredibly resilient at fixing itself. I've suffered from very severe damage (and so did my dad) but I gained back all my faculties (so did he), though it did take some time. While your brain is busy making new connections to make up for the lost ones, play as much scrabble and chess as you can. It really helps your brain recreate the lost connections, and develop logic.
Regarding the second point. Nothing can possibly cheer me up. I've come to accept this fact.> But oh, I feel these things and I cannot put them into words. Please excuse this scatty post.
>I thought it was one of the nicest posts I've read.
love,
JOHN
> Lisa
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