Posted by shellie on September 7, 2000, at 22:43:55
After a very scary one day trial of resperdal with Nardil, I am finally trying a trial of adrafinil with Nardil. I am feeling sort of scared and alone. My pdoc said as long as I was taking the adrafinil, she can not be my doctor, but I could return to her after the trial.
(Will I want to?)My most immediate problem is that I will run out of Nardil in two weeks, which I should have anticipated before I lost my pdoc. I'm not sure who will prescribe it to me, knowing that my pdoc thought it was unsafe. I never imagined that I'd ever be creating a strategy for finding nardil.
But also, after torturing me with two very long useless trials of topomax and provigil (I slept 16 hours a day for almost a month each time), then creating a real scare with risperdal (without warning me of possible side effects), she says she cannot be there for me at all since she disagrees with my decision. So I don't even have anyone to ask if I'm having a weird reaction, except I guess the emergency room. I know she is doing what she truely thinks is right, but after six years with her, I am really sad. She also has the best reputation for "hard to treat" depression in my city, so anyone I talk to will feel nervous to treat me after her. (That's what happened in the hospital--my hospital doctor wanted to take me off topomax, but deferred to my outpatient doc (because of her reputation)). I am very angry at myself for letting that happen-- for not dropping the topomax after no good effect and total tiredness.
Anyway, first three days, no bad effects on adrafinil--maybe even good. I am on 300mg and may very very slowly go up to 600. I think I'll be fine; it just would have been nice if my pdoc had disagreed with my decision but agreed to be there for me in case of medical questions. I'm going to see if I can find a French doctor tomorrow at NIMH--or one who's spent time in France to answer any questions.
I don't really need anything--just needed to vent.
Shellie
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