Posted by Vesper on August 16, 2000, at 21:10:01
Hi, I haven't posted in awhile, things have been kinda overwhelming. I am seeing a pdoc and "case manager" in Santa Monica. They have me on Wellbutrin SR and Ativan(1mg at bedtime) I have not taken the wellbutrin an a week or so, and the ativan is hit and miss. I have a girlfriend Wendy, it's hard cause she's younger, and knows it all, if you know what I mean! She can make everything hurtful she does sound like it's my fault. I'm so afraid to be alone again I will let her treat me any way she wants. I think I will kill myself when she finally decides to leave me. I'm 33 years old and not very successful in the accepted sense, and I can't see anyone else ever wanting to be with me. I listen to Indigo Girls and she likes Eminem! ack!!!! I try to explain how that kind of vitriol is sick and hurtful, but she just thinks its "funny." I love her though, I see the pain she has been through, and the potential for her life and want to see her blossom....sorry I;m rambling. Anyone know the effects of moving to another state while on SSDi?
Thanks
Vesper
I love you guys and gals!
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