Posted by Billb on August 12, 2000, at 19:01:00
In reply to Re: AndrewB, JohnL, Social Anxiety (long), posted by Billb on August 11, 2000, at 15:42:55
AndrewB, another thought. I realize that without medication I was depressed and I continuously talked negatively to myself about past performances, social interactions. This occured about 12 times per day. When I started taking Paxil it did not help my SA but I was less depressed and the level of negative self talk decreased significantly, noticeably (say once every day or two). When I had adrafinil in my system, the SA improved and negative self talk decreased to very infrequently (say once per week). When the adrafinil left my system the negative self talk increased 50%.
By negative self talk I mean talk like "you are such and as_" or "you are the biggest jerk" or so on. It is hard to stop. I continually think of things I said or did yersterday or last week or last year or in 1981. I think the SA made me feel ashamed.
One thing that seemed to help, when I was without meds, was continuously pumping positive thoughts into my mind by reading and listening to audio tapes. But this came in phases and has been hard to sustain.
Told you you would regret asking. I am really interested in your success story. Hope I hear from you again.
Regards,
Bill
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