Posted by tdaneen on August 11, 2000, at 10:20:12
Alright, alright... I KNOW it is another stupid phase it is going to pass...blah, blah, blah.
I am tired. I feel waterlogged. You know? Like when you were a kid and played in the pool for far too long. You get out and all the bouyancy you had in the pool is gone, and it is back to the usual gravity, but it feels so much heavier. That is how I feel now. It has just been getting worse.
I forgot my nighttime meds for three nights in a row. Somehow, I didn't get the message for my pdoc appointment, so now I can't get in for another whole month. My husband (separated for 8 1/2 months) NOW thinks he can handle being a Bipolar significant other. It is one of the reasons he wanted the divorce, you see. He couldn't handle me and the moods, etc, etc.
He went as far as to buy some pricy earrings for me. Well, I'm not going to be bought. He still hasn't shown me how he has "changed" after he had his epiphany. He has bought some books on bipolar illness (a prop to set out in his house??), I don't know if he is reading them.
I had even started dating again (being as the divorce has been in the works for months now). The man I am seeing wants a serious (read VERY in front of that serious) relationship.Oh, I could go on, (and would given a chance there is a LOT more, other stuff, other things), I just need to vent.
I am tired of feeling pulled and pushed, and muted.
AAAARRRGGGHH!!!!!
poster:tdaneen
thread:42599
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