Posted by tdaneen on July 18, 2000, at 11:46:40
Hey Kath!
I haven't had much time in the past week to get back to you. I hope you got it that I was trying to be funny and make a joke with the "Mom" thing (hope you weren't offended). You are so caring and I like having a "Mommy" out there somewhere for me (and everyone else here too). Just make sure you don't over extend your self, OK?
I'm doing ok. I think I'm going to take a trip out of state this weekend. I've been invited to visit some old friend some five hours away. I think the change of scenery will be good for me. They called me from out of the blue a few weeks ago (made me cry-the brats Gotta love 'um) I think that getting away from the soon-to-be-ex, the problems on top of problems, on top of problems.... could be a nice break.
I also did something nice for myself last night. I bought a huge art book. Now the background story isn't very interesting, but last year I was VERY manic. I had my very first artistic experience. I was never an artistic child. I was never supported to experiment artistically. Well, I thought what the hell, right? I started sketching, and drawing, and soon, I was working in pastels. They became my favorite medium. I haven't done much since I moved out of my husbands house, but I thought now is the right time to start again. Who ever said that nothing good ever came out of a manic phase? The drawing and sketching really became a release and alternate therapy for me. I even found out that I wasn't really all that awful. My daughter thinks I'm alright! She even shows my pictures off to whoever comes over like I show hers off. Cute, huh?
I took her to daycare yesterday, and Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive" came on the radio. I turned it up really loud, and stopped. My daughter and I got out and danced and sang at the top of our lungs. She said "Mommy I like that song!" Translation: Mommy I like it when you are silly with me! So, I guess the huge amounts of drugs I have to take every day are working. I'm still boosting the Topamax. I have another week before I get up to full dose.
The husband is low key for now. He might go on strike, which means I might have to get a second job to make ends meet while they are on strike. It isn't like I havent' done that before. I just don't like spending that much time away from the junior version of me (the one that I try so hard to try and make NOT like me).Are there any repayments yet? I really wish I could help you with your dilema. I haven't been in that situation, neither yours nor your son's. If there is any support or giggles I can provide just give a yell.
Sorry I "babbled" so much today. It's gotta be the drugs!! :^)
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