Posted by Sara T on July 16, 2000, at 2:15:18
In reply to WHY???????(long), posted by kellyR. on July 15, 2000, at 23:01:32
> It has been 18yrs since my father got himself killed,I was 10yrs old my father was out of jail,he was living w/ his parents because my parents got a divores when i was two,he came to visit alote and stayed for a week or two til my mom & dad would get into a fight & the cops would come,then we couldn't see him or talk to him because of my mother. I can remember sitting on the rocks down by the beach w/ him just looking at the waves coming in, not saying anything just happy to be w/ him.after things calmed down she would let him come back over,til the samething would happen again this went on for a year,He even called on my mother for child abuse but they didn't beleive him, they thought that he was making it up (but it was true).
> I can remember the phone call that i got from my dad like it was yesterday,He called to ask if i would like to live w/ him because he had kicked his parents out of the house so there was lotes of room.At the time i was talking to him i didn't know that the cops where out sided the house tring to get him to come out,he was on hard drugs at the time,so when i said i have to ask first,but i really wanted to say was yes,but to scared of my mother.so on June 21,1982 at 3am (father's day) the cops when in the back door & saw him standing in the dark w/ a knife that they thought was a gun & started shouting,he was dead.
> When i came home from school the next day i was told about what had happen to him,I didn't cry or beleive it.A month later his friend came over the house to give us this drawing that my father had done, It was big & had lote of things going on,everything that happen in his life,& how he was going to kill himself.
> I still miss him & wish i could be w/ him.If only i would of said yes,he might of not died. Just need to share,thank youKelly-
How awful for you. Please accept a cyberhug from me ((((((Kelly))))))). It can't erase the pain but I hope it brings you some warmth.Sara T.
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