Posted by AndrewB on July 14, 2000, at 20:20:37
In reply to Feel like a failure and get depressed about it, posted by Thomas W on July 13, 2000, at 8:15:04
Thomas,
Hey I’m a self hating type too. I prefer to call it virulent self loathing though. Sometimes I feel like the lowest, most despicable scum of the earth- green slime underneath a rock that is below a snake’s belly. At times it feels like a Nazi is in my head scouring the ghettos of my mind. Auchtung! You ever have like a voice going on in your head saying stuff like, ‘you piece of sh**t, how could you be so dumb as to do that.’
Thomas, tell me do you also have trouble facing certain social situations. I worry that people will find out what a piece of sh**t I really am and I will be humiliated. I just avoid many social situations.
Actually I think I can give you some useful advice here. Low doses of certain neuroleptics can take away that critical voice. Amisulpride, one such neuroleptic, quiets my mind and really takes away my self criticism. It’s weird, if I stop taking amisulpride that critical voice comes roaring back along with self hatred and self disappointment. Amisulpride may be purchased overseas with or without a prescription. I have put together an information piece on amisulpride. Contact me at andrewb@seanet.com and I will email it to you.
The antipsychotic Zyprexa is available in the US and maybe it is just as effective as amisulpride. One poster said of Zyprexa, ‘it really did help me get rid of lots of terrible thoughts.’ If you look above in the thread ‘Cocktail Update’ you will see that Zyprexa helps KarenB with her social anxiety and emotional stability. Karen has just started taking amisulpride, so continue to watch her posts. It will be interesting to see her compare amisulpride with Zyprexa. Zyprexa does tend to cause weight gain and sedation.
Best of luck,
AndrewB
‘I would not join any club that would have me as a member.’
Groucho Marx
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