Posted by SLS on July 7, 2000, at 7:16:40
In reply to Re: SLS :-) Thanks ! :-), posted by Chris A. on July 6, 2000, at 19:59:59
> Dear Scott,
> Thanks for the referral to Andrew Nierenberg and the support. I wish I could be of more support to you through your tough times. Your post that I missed from 6/25 is much appreciated. If I had seen it earlier you could have been responsible for preventing an OD and subsequent hospitalization. I hope that helps you to feel worthwhile, because you are. Is the sulpiride offering any signs of hope? I don't dare touch it because of the TD issues. You are so knowledeable and empathetic that it's tempting to ask you what combo I should be on. Perhaps the lamotrigine combined with the seligiline and Klonipin will help stabilize me at a more tolerable level. Bits and pieces of my memory are beginning to resurface. It is hard to be dumb in a setting where intelligence is at the top of the list (second). I couldn't even figure out how to post here. No more ECT for me - ever. I even questioned my pDoc concerning advanced directives - in case I should forget. My mood is labile- mostly better today, but still struggling. Your prayers are appreciated. The Lord and my family keep me going. Sometimes "family" extends beyond the biological.
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> To perseverance,
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> Chris A.
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> P.S Thanks!
Dear Chris,I'm glad you're here.
I am so easily intimidated by the intelligence, intellect, and professional and academic accomplishments evidenced by the people on this babble-board. I have tried so hard just to keep up with the simple things in life. I had to drop out of college after my sophomore year because I could no longer read and remember things. I tried to reenter school the following year, but failed miserably. I had been a pretty good student up until then. There is so much that I wanted to learn and do. I still want to. The dementia produced by my illness leaves me feeling below the level of most of the rest of the world. I like when some drug gives me a temporary improvement that includes memory and cognition because I feel as if my I.Q. increases exponentially. It's nice to be part of what's going on. I know how deceptive my words can be. I must push very hard.
I am glad that you were able to find some comfort and consolation in what I wrote to you. Every word is true.
I am not responding to sulpiride the way I had hoped to. I think it is beginning to make me feel cognitively dulled and a bit flat. If it doesn't produce a significant improvement soon, I will be fearful to continue it because of EPS concerns. This sucks. I am beginning to contemplate seeing a new doctor. As much as I respect my doctor's knowledge, I don't think he is any longer focused on treating his few remaining private patients. I live near NYC and Philadelphia, although it is much easier for me to get to NYC. I may give Dr. Nierenberg a call to see if there is anyone here he would recommend. By the way, CNN announced the results of some poll indicating that Massachussetts General was the best medical facility in the U.S. for psychiatry.
Your memory and cognitive skills will return. It may take a month or two, so be patient. Try not to worry about it too much. I know this is much easier to say than it is to do, as there is no guarantee. I don't feel that my bilateral treatments left me with any permanent impairments. You actually sound pretty good. I think I can speak for most of us here when I say that we are here for you.
Speak to ya'...
Sincerely,
Scott
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