Posted by danf on June 20, 2000, at 21:20:07
lychees & panic.
have been on celexa 3 weeks
well, I set off on a weekend trip, about 400 miles. Got to Homestead & saw a fruitstand with lychees for sale ! Stopped & picked out about 4 pounds & mangoes & watermelon & some other stuff.
Got to the checkout & no money ! had about $3 in my pocket. OK, here it goes.... am about 300 miles from home, still have 100 miles to go & no money for the trip. lost credit cards a year ago because I didn't have the energy to pay the bill, had the money, no energy. I had a few $ in a cup to pay tolls, nothing else. Looked everywhere in the car, nothing. no money !
So I thought, this is it. I will roll up in a ball & die ! Here come another disabling PA ! This has to happen to me !
what happened ? nothing ! I went back into the fruitstand & told the guy, "I lost my money, keep the fruit". He said, we are friends here ( I never saw him before & never stopped there before ), take the fruit & pay me the next time you come by. It made my day.
No PA hit ! I calmly went back to the car & drove on. Didn't breakup, didn't get the shakes, didn't get heart pounding, nothing, no leg numbness, no chest pain ! Good people ? Where are the others ?
I went on down the road & met my friends about 2 hrs later. no problem driving.
Maybe there is hope ! celexa & Inderal seems to work.
If this did't set off a major PA, then maybe there is hope ? Maybe there is some way, I can function in this world ?
I have lived thru weeks & months where it took too much energy to go out of the house ( it goes back at least 2 yrs ) , Where all was dark & it seemed like there was no light in the future, where there was no joy ahead.
Not today, there is life ahead for me. If there is life & hope for me then there is for you guys too ! If I can take this & not come unglued, you can too !
PS: The lychees were great !
poster:danf
thread:37942
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