Posted by amy18 on June 18, 2000, at 1:32:00
I am extremely confused. I went to a pdoc because I was only sleeping 2-3 hours a night and severely depressed. I was put on paxil and given lorezepam to sleep. I began to have what I call zombie days. I was put on Wellbutrin and given clonazapan to sleep. Then I had two weeks of grand spending, sex, wonderful conversation, blah blah blah, and my pdoc decided I was bipolar. Then it was paxil, wellbutrin, and lithium and clonezepam to sleep. Now after what have been labeled as suicide attempts (i saw them as great ideas at the time), I'm on depakote and seroquel and wondering if there is ever going to be a month where I use to feel what I deem as normal and awake. Will I ever get my life back or is my head just screwed up entirely. It must be said though that I did change my doctor after the first "great idea" of mine (he reduced my meds). I am not functioning well at work. The scary thing is, I could care less. All I want to do is curl up in my bed and never move. I had a therapist, but we got no where so I found it not worth $25/week. So basically, can anyone tell me, is there a cure for this or am I destined to just function through life and that's it? I don't take the seroquel when i'm depressed (i can sleep without it), but then when i'm depressed, my pdoc wants to see me but i'm too tired to wait in the waiting room for an appointment. i fall asleep then end up leaving. sometimes i can't stand the noise other people make, i can't think, my mind wanders in the middle of a sentence while i'm talking. today is a good day, but some days i just wake up and want to cry for nothing. someone out there does any of this sound familar?
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