Posted by MB on June 11, 2000, at 18:16:40
In reply to Re: coping with the naltrexone police, posted by si on June 4, 2000, at 9:19:51
> still no help over webs, looks like bedtime is looking early tonight, any ideas and dont give me any fishing trips or mountain biking, i havent got the energy or patience
Hey man, give yourself a break. You're still in your first few weeks of detox. I know it sounds stupid, but try and allow yourself to feel terrible. It doesn't mean that there's something wrong with you, and it doesn't mean that life will never be good again....it just means that you're detoxing from some seriously addictive stuff. It's going to suck. I couldn't find anything that made me feel better when I was going through it. I'm glad you have sleeping pills. They won't directly alleviate the physical symptoms, but every second you can sleep is a bonus. Getting off of those pills can be hard too, though. Be careful with the benzos and the barbs. Just hang on and keep reminding yourself that it's not forever, it WILL get better. In my opinion, the rebound depression you might experience is worse than the physical pain. Plus, it could last A LOT longer. If you were depressed before you started using, it's all the more problematic. I would highly recommend getting on an antidepressant as soon as your nervous system is stable enough to handle it. I had to wait until I was done with the physical detox before i could handle antidepressents. I've been off opiates a while now, and I'm telling you that my worst day clean is better than the best day I had addicted to that crap. Yeah, it feels like heaven at first, but when you're addicted, you don't get that wonderful feeling anymore. You're just shooting up to stay "well". PLUS, any depression you were trying to medicate starts coming back.
I know it sounds like I'm preaching. Maybe I am a little. I just hope so much that you stick with you're recovery. I'm so much happier dealing with my depression clean, than dealing with it as an addict.
Clean, I have the hope that I'll eventually conquer my depression. It's already 100 times better than when I first got sober. On heroin, I had no hope.
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