Posted by Ima Lamer on May 30, 2000, at 5:14:32
I'm 19 years old. I have (diag.) Bi-Polar disorder, but the most fun form of all, Rapid Cycling.
It kept me from two years of school, and I've been out of work for 6 months now. I am about to be sent to collections (anyone who is Bi-P out there without credit cards, don't get 'em!), and it seems that I am at my wit's end.
I know that this feeling is "normal", and I am not stressed anymore by this feeling, it's a daily thing. I've seen doctors of all types, and even spent a weekend in the psych ward. I've been on Lithium, Depakote (is that spelled right?) and many anti-depressants, but with no avail. This is something I have accepted in life - and actually in my manic days/moments, it can be kinda fun (i'm really funny then).
But I guess my question really is, what are MY chances of maybe getting on Social Security Disablity? I now live with a girlfriend, who financially supports me as much as she can (I eat), and doesn't step on my (mental) toes - but I need some sort of income. I'm greatful that God could bless me with such a nice person, but this isn't going to go on forever.
I had a job for 2+ years, but I walked out on an UP day, and now I'm really screwed. It's not at all that I don't want to work, but the anxiety that is involved is just too much (that's why I spent the time in the ward) and I would like to devote my life to more important things.
Well, I'll just wait for more posts to write more.
PS. I have ruled out suicide (the major cause of death in my situation) just because...
There must be a better way.
ALSO: I don't leave the house most days-and have delusional obessive (and sometimes scary) thoughts. But I can live with these problems, it's my past employers who have the problems with it.
poster:Ima Lamer
thread:35187
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