Posted by Kathie on May 17, 2000, at 18:20:26
In reply to Re: how long until a post shows?, posted by stjames on May 17, 2000, at 15:53:44
I am feeling okay today..this morning I was feeling kind down...hubby came home from work at midnight (and no he was not working that late! He was out drinking). This afternoon I am feeling much better though, cleaned house and I always feel better when the house is nice and clean.
Noa:
I totally understand how you would feel embarassed by someone seeing your apartment when it is looking bad, and having had ugly depression in the past I also have been where you are right now. I have tried to take some of that negative energy and used it on my house, rather than just sitting there looking at how bad it looks and feeling that much worse. Of course my old house burned down and I live in a brand new house with all brand new stuff in it and it is so so much easier to keep clean (don't ask my why!), perhaps I am just more motivated because everything is new, I don't know. Sometimes when the laundry gets piled up (I have 3 kids living at home) I can feel the motivation just seep right out of my body..sometimes I give in to it and close the door to the laundry room and deal with it later, sometimes I decide to do just a "little" of it and before you know it, its all done.
I think if I won the lottery and didn't have to deal with my grumpy husband I would feel excellent. At the moment I sure can feel myself being dragged down by unhappy he is making me. I try very hard to ignore it and just carry on with my own life, but seriously it isn't that easy.
Oh well...enough whining the blues for me for one day!!
Greg..how are you doing? You weren't feeling so great over the past little while, any improvement??
Kathie
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