Posted by Mark H. on May 16, 2000, at 17:04:31
In reply to Change in direction?, posted by Greg on May 16, 2000, at 12:54:23
Dear Greg,
Thanks for your kind comments. I feel that I need to fall back and do some more thinking too. If the "self-delete" feature I mentioned were available on this board, I could probably take out a third to half of my postings in this period and improve the tenor of the discussion. It's a minor dilemma, in the sense that if I over-edit myself, which I tend to do, then I leave some marvelously helpful people out of my process and appear to be other than I really am. If I self-edit too little, well... that problem speaks for itself.
There have been times in the last three years that I've had to quit the internet altogether for awhile, because like anything else that is intensely interesting, it can become addictive for me. The more time I spend at the board, the more personal and important everything seems. At some point, my perceptions and expectations become unrealistic, but of course I don't know that at the time!
I'm struck with how much like a family active board members are. There is a great deal of fondness and respect that bonds us together, and we sincerely want to be better people and help one another. At the same time, I suspect I exhibit the same dysfunctions towards other board members that I did in my family growing up.
Best wishes,
Mark H.
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