Posted by JohnB on May 12, 2000, at 3:28:22
In reply to Another pointless ER visit/ECT/etc., posted by Vesper on May 11, 2000, at 17:40:00
> I had already cut myself a few times(not seriously enough for sutures, so I didn't mention that, I just told em I was getting really self-destructive because of no treatment and withdrawal from meds because no one seems to want to help me.)
It seems that one has to do some serious damage to be taken seriously. i have a really hard time explaining just how bad I feel, I use humour or something as a defence, even when I don't want to. Sorry this was so long.
My boat is in dry dock having some fibreglass work done and new bottom paint, meanwhile I am staying on a friend's cabin cruiser a few slips down from mine. I don't know if i can take another night alone, I'm beginning to see and hear and think strange things, its' scaring me quite a bit, and no one seems to care or think it's a big deal. I'm starting to think I should just end this once and for all, after all, if UCLA gave up on me, there must be good reason.Vesper- If you are having those kinds of ideas, perhaps your not letting them know it clearly enough. I may be wrong, but it sounds like you may be downplaying your symptoms when you go to UCLA, then when you get to Babble, you tell it more like it really is. Sometimes we feel that we don't want to "upset" the doctor, or make them nervous, or have them fell we are "weak". So perhaps we minimize our symptoms, or make jokes. But that may be the wrong tack, if I can use a nautical term with you, especially in an ER situation where people are seeing you so briefly. Medical professionals are trained act aggressively if someone is, for instance, thinking about "ending it", but may be more complacent if you downplay your symptoms.
In the meantime, I hope you concentrate on getting back aboard your own boat. A friend of mine has a 25 footer berthed down at Long Beach. Makes the Catalina run a lot. I'm curious, do you post from the boat, or what? Can you save a lot rent money by living on the water? I lived on a boat once and it was the greatest. -JohnB
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