Posted by Vesper on May 6, 2000, at 21:02:43
I can't say much right now, but I posted a message days ago, and was wondering if anyone saw it...it was very long and I don't have the energy to repeat it all right now, but I want to say that I am grateful for what I read when I looked at psychobabble a couple of days ago...maybe i will post again, if you all really want me to. I feel a stupid posting after all that, like maybe people will think I said goodbye to get attention..maybe I did, I don't really know what I am doing anymore. I believed what I wrote though, and am pretty sure I still believe it. I've been drinking a lot to keep myself unconscious when I want to be, to make time go by faster so I can get things taken care of, so I am free to hurt myself badly. I am planning self-destructive things, and maybe the fact that I am telling you all this means something. but what? I can't think too clearly right now, sorry. I feel really guilty for being so ..well whatever I am .
poster:Vesper
thread:32577
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