Posted by Rebecca on April 24, 2000, at 20:33:32
In reply to Re: community band members anonymous, posted by Rebecca on April 20, 2000, at 17:19:50
well, the weekend went rather poorly. I thought I was truly losing my mind on saturday--things didn't seem real, my bathroom was far too much visual stimulation.... it was very distressing. I ended up lying in bed, shutting my eyes, and ignoring the existence of anything outside my head. the experience left me pretty scared until this afternoon.
so now I'm afraid that I'm losing touch with reality in a bad way. I'm ok with questioning the nature of reality, but only in the detached, academic sense. not when I'm wondering about my immediate surroundings.
I tried to call my pdoc today, but he's on vacation all week, and there's no way I'd trust the doofus nurse to make medical judgments. so I'm hanging out for another week and trying not to question what's real.
on the plus side, I've felt pretty decent this evening and got some stuff done around home.
so am I really going crazy now? the same sort of thing happened in December, but to a significantly lesser degree.
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