Posted by To Janice on April 24, 2000, at 12:27:11
In reply to Janet R, posted by Janice on April 23, 2000, at 15:09:29
> Hello Janet,
>
> Just checking to see how you're doing. Whether or not the stimulants are working well for you.
>
> JaniceDear Janice, thanks for asking. The results with the ritalin are a bit inconsistent. Sometimes, I feel really good and other times it seems to be having no effect at all. I'm going to have to ask my doc why this is. My doc. is a cognitive therapist trained by the Beck Institute and he wants me to do therapy and I am doubtful.
The only thing that has really bugged me about being depressed is the tiredness and lack of energy. Now he wants to change my mindset so that I'm less pessimistic. Firstly, having been brought up a Catholic I have always assumed that earthly happiness is an unattainable goal. I have always aimed for an exciting and adventurous life rather than a happy one. Is it the Chinese who say "May your life be interesting".To a large extent, perhaps thanks to the ADD, I have achieved that. I have travelled a lot and done lots of crazy things like crossed the Andes on my own on an ordinary clapped out passenger bus. I haven't been sucessfull financially or professionally but I'm not much worse off than my contemporaries.
Secondly, I am married to an incurable optimist. He jumps out of bed singing and whistles all day , for God's sake ! I have discovered the hard way, that my husband's optimism is even less related to reality than my pessism. I have also seen that my husband is incapable of learning from experience because whatever diaster his optimism leads him into he always sees himself as some kind of hero. He has such a positive self-image that he cannot conceive himself ever to have been wrong.Therefore he cannot learn from his mistakes as, to him, he doesn't make them. Does this make sense to you? Two optimistic people in the same household would be disastrous. So I think I shall cling on to my pessism/realism.Sorry to go on so, but it has helped to sort things out in my head , writing it down to you.
How are you doing without ADs. Again, thanks for caring. Jan
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