Posted by Jenny on April 22, 2000, at 23:14:28
I started on Serzone 13 months ago. My main complaint was waking up multiple times in the night and being unable to return to sleep for hours and sometimes early morning wakening. I considered it insomnnia, but read on the internet that if sleep problems hang on for a long time it's probably depression. I then did some depression inventories and scored high. I am now on serzone. The serzone at 300 mg at bedtime helped for a number of months. Then I started waking up again, and I was upped to 400 mg. That was good for a few months. The doctor tried to wean my off, reducing it to 300 mg and my sleep immediately deteriorated. He put me back to the 400. Now I'm again beginning to awaken in the middle of the night and have some early morning wakenings. Now I am starting to freak out. I am thinking I probably need to be upped to 500 mg. Then the 500 will help for a while, then I'll have to have it upped to 600. Then that won't work after a while and I will have maxed out. Then I'll be put on something else with worse side effects. And then I'll be going from one to another in a way that most of you describe. Originally he said I'd be on for 6-9 months. Clearly that was way too optimistic. I'm probably chronic. This all really upsets me terribly because I was always very perfectionist, very hard on myself, and have a very hard time admitting to myself that I am someone who "suffers from depression" - a psychiatric thing. But I have been reading your posts, and I so admire how courageous you all are. Most of you have been through hell with switching around on medications. And none of you seem to be in denial about the reality of your situations. I am having major trouble accepting that this is my reality and may be for the rest of my life. I give you all tremendous credit for your honesy and forthrightness and, again, courage.
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