Posted by CarolAnn on April 20, 2000, at 18:59:24
In reply to Re: Lunatic, posted by Lunatic on April 20, 2000, at 0:55:41
I've found the dialogues you two are having very interesting. The question of what "reality" really is, fascinates me. I've read so much stuff trying to find answers, Philosophy, histories of the major religions, even books on quantum theory and Physics(the last two, only if written in layman's terms).
I also went thru a period of delusional belief, it was in the early to late 80's. At that time, I didn't know that I had "depression" and could be helped. I just thought that I was strange and different from other people, and miserable because of that. So, (big admission here), I developed the sincere believe that at some point in time, God would let me go back to a certain point of my life and "start over" as a normal person. Every single day I would fantasize what my new life was going to be like, and every night I went to sleep, believing, absolutely that I would wake up to this "new" reality. I have to say that this particular delusion probably saved my life many times. Not knowing that I suffered an illness "depression", I had no way of knowing that I could be helped with therapy and meds. So, my only hope for future happiness, was in my delusion of getting to start my life over. Therefore, without that delusion, I am absolutely sure that I would have been overcome by the hopelessness, and would not be here today to tell the tail. Whew! Well, I just wanted to share my personal experience of having an alternative "reality" as a coping mechanism, at a time when I didn't know that help was available, let alone how to seek it out. Sorry this got so long! CarolAnn
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