Posted by Jan on April 20, 2000, at 11:20:00
In reply to Re: To Scott, may I call you Scott? - Yes :-), posted by Scott L. Schofield on April 19, 2000, at 23:40:56
Scott, I had a totally trippy day yesterday. I was sailing fairly high and thought I was just in a good mood, then it turned weird and I think I was mixed. I started feeling that I did not like it anymore and I'd rather be depressed and I was a little scared. I wanted the magic emotion fairy to zap me into one feeling and pick it for me. This is how I felt and if you would, help me put a label on it. My handwriting went jerky,I had contained energy yet I felt exhausted. I went to take a nap but couldn't stay there. I was tired of "doing" and just wanted to escape from all responsibility. Yet felt like "doing". I know it seems impossible. But I just report 'em as I experience 'em. I felt like throwing things and screaming and having a fit. Which is so totally opposite of how I am. I've never thrown anything in my life. Anyway, I went to choir practice because Easter is coming up and I needed the practice and I thought it would take my mind off myself. Well, we have an hour of prayer first and I couldn't sit still and kept having to leave. Then in choir practice I "crashed" I guess they call it and fell apart and left crying UNCONTROLLABLY. I was anxious (as in bad) to be around people while a friend came to talk to me as I was leaving. She offered to take me home and I said I was "a big girl" and left. After about half an hour, I was playing a game with my family and doing ok. I did not sleep well. The last few days I've been sleeping less and less. I usually need 9 hrs. a night, last night it was 6. Today I see a social worker from the Co. Health Dept. I've had this appt. for weeks. Then I'll hook up with a psychiatrist. My favorite people:( I've seen about 7 different ones.
So was that mixed state or rapid cycling or manic ,disphoric ???????????
Looking forward to your reply. Jan
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