Posted by Liz on April 5, 2000, at 9:47:37
In reply to Can you see the real me?, posted by bob on April 5, 2000, at 1:34:43
Bob, I loved your post. It touches on something I have been struggling with - my failure to affect a positive change without the use of medication. I didn't actually start agonizing about that until after I began Celexa. I started to feel better, then I began to stew about that, like I needed anything new about which to struggle! Anyway, your note made some terrific analogies and helped me recall a statement my doctor made, that it wasn't really ME, but my brain chemistry and, as you say, all one's baggage is also thrown into the mix. So, I'm going to make a determined effort not to fret too much about it, just as I don't fret about taking aspirin for a headache. Also, your post made me think that perhaps the "real me" does not exist as some static thing; that we all are sort of evolving, working toward being happier, being better people, etc. If we don't adapt and change, if we don't respond to our environment and our experiences, then we are truly in a sad place. I might add, in reference to this whole thread, that Celexa alone did make me fuzzy, but now that I've started Adderall, the combination is really effective! In less than two months, I've come a long way....I'm having trouble remembering how low I had really sunk. It also struck me that you aren't looking for medication to make some magical transformation FOR you, but are using it as a catalyst for taking your own positive steps. Thats a notion that has just come to me recently and I like feeling as though I'm an active participant in my improvement, recovery, whatever you want to call it. Bob, you do sound like a witty, bright and thoughtful person. I like your attitude - keep up the good work.
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