Posted by Julie on March 25, 2000, at 20:57:51
Hi. I'm new to this kind of thing. But I feel it will be good for my treatment. I have been on wellbutrin for depression I am bipolar. It definitely helped me in my depression. However, I was in dire need of something to help me with my mania. I just recently had an episode after 2 1/2 mos.! It was awful! Screaming for no reason at my husband. It ended with my head swimming in pain because my thoughts were racing so fast my eyes wouldn't focus. Praying for help I finally fell asleep. The next day my whole body was numb. I could hardly function. I called in to work sick. I slept a good half a day. That same day I saw my psycdoc. I explained to her what happened. I suggested to her that since my blood test results were now back, could we please decide on a mood-stabilizer. She suggested depakote. I have now been on it for 3 days. The first day was weird, no emotion. The second day, functioning much better, able to smile and laugh, but ended quickly. The third day, I could see much clearer now. Is this what it's like to be normal? Being able to keep one thought and one conversation and sticking to it without jumping to something else? This is weird. My family has noticed already my attention span is much longer. I laugh now when it's the right time. I'm no longer on that rollercoast ride I've been on all my life (by the way, I'm nearly 38 years). The only thing I've experienced these past 3 days is a slight headache, which is not there this evening, and I've had a couple of dizzy spells today. My face feels like maybe I've had a couple of stiff drinks. Anybody out there, is this something I should be concerned about? Has anybody been bipolar nearly all their life and didn't know it until it was nearly too late and you have tried commiting suicide at least 3 times? As I've gotten older my hormonal disruption has also played a major factor in my moods. You think you have experienced P.M.S. Try having extreme hormonal fluctuation and disfunction along with being bipolar. So far, I'm like the depakote. Not to mention I sleep pretty well. I do still have to take a sleeping pill at night to make sure I don't wake up more than once.
I believe that each drug is different for each of our personalities. What may be a good drug for one may be a bad drug for another. Yes, your phycdoc should tell you all of the side effects. Make sure you ask questions. That's how we learn. If something doesn't feel right call your psycdoc rightaway.
Right now I'm not playing with the manic demons in my head. I'm happy and I like it. But here again this is after only 3 days. I will keep in touch to let anyone interested know how I'm doing.
Hang in there Nancy.
Strength to you all for at least knowing and admitting your are bipolar. We are the few who have that chance of not being a statistic to suicide.
Respectfully,
Julie
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