Posted by Raymond on March 21, 2000, at 17:10:29
Hi, My name is Ray and this is my first post on this site, having only found it today. I am a recovering alcoholic, who is now in the process of looking into the reasons (self-medication?) that I drank, as I have always been prone to panic and/or anxiety attacks. I know I need psychotherapy, and my first tentative foray into that area matched me with a well-meaning doctor who prescribed Klonopin for me, 2mgs. 4x/day. It worked (oh, how it worked!), but I quickly realized that it was doing for me what the alcohol always did...took the edge off life, and in some instances I absolutely shined as an employee, partner, and all-round human being. I also saw the insidiousness of it for that reason. So I stopped it on my own and stopped therapy after a few sessions.
After a year, I am barely hanging with my high-profile silicon valley job...sometimes I want to crawl under my desk and hide....or drink or take 2 mgs, in which case everytthing would be alright.
I don't want to live with this fear anymore. Talk to me!
poster:Raymond
thread:27769
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