Posted by Janice on March 12, 2000, at 22:42:53
In reply to What's Your Educated Guess?, posted by anonymous on March 12, 2000, at 20:13:28
hello Anonymous,
I can relate to your anger and (I'm guessing) to how bad you feel.
My educated guess is that you have a biological illness that causes your perceptions to be skcewed. Try not to get the real you confused with this medical problem. You are not the anger and hatred you feel. Can you remember a time when you were not like this...this you is probably closer to the real you.
I have never tried to be like anyone else, but this 'problem of yours' sounds like your attempt at a coping mechanism for getting through these bad times. If I believed I hated myself, I, too, would want to be someone else. What you're doing makes alot of sense to me. Who would want to be someone that they hate...even if it is themselves? No one I can think of.
My guess is that you have a medical condition that tricks your brain into feeling the ways you described. My guess is that you need a good doctor, that you can be honest with about how you're feeling, trials at different medications until you find one that helps, and some time and some patience to try various methods of getting better.
I wish you the best of luck.
I, for one, would never believe you are the you that deserves your own hatred. Janice
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