Posted by Renee N on February 27, 2000, at 23:42:59
In reply to Re: Social Isolation - lonely, posted by Colleen on February 27, 2000, at 18:14:20
When I want to isolate myself I hide in a room or on a corner of my couch and read. I ignore everyone. I wake up and all I want to do is read. I find that I can go into another dimension and not deal with what is around me.
Coleen,
Welcome! I'm glad you came. I have had no real friends since reaching adulthood. I love my family, but it's not enough. My husband has always been a homebody, and kind of a hermit. I used to be very outgoing. At work I am very friendly and believe that most people there enjoy my company, and think I'm good at my job. But I don't seem to know how to get past the acquaintance stage to the do things together, call eachother, etc. stage. I feel like a social failure. I know some of my problem has been that I'm not a great housekeeper, but part of me is a perfectionist. I fear I will look less than perfect if people see my home. No one ever invites me or my husband and I as a couple to do anything. I never invite others. I always think that they will think I am weird for thinking that we were close enough for acting like friends instead of acquaintances. I feel very close to tears as I write this. I hide this part of myself from whoever I can. I don't even understand what is "normal" for adults as far as social life goes. I have done lots of things with my kids. My husband doesn't do much with us outside our home. I can't depend on them for my social support. I am very glad to at least have my cyber friends here. Coleen, these are the most caring and intelligent people you could ever hope to befriend. Just pop in on any thread you want. Everyone will make you feel welcome and appreciated.
I don't think what I have described is social anxiety, is it? I am very friendly and have no problem talking to people wherever I am. I start conversations with strangers quite often. Any advise or comments would be appreciated from anyone. If I've already written about this, please excuse me. I have trouble keeping track of whom I tell what...ADD, remember? ;)
> The meds I'm on are 300mg Effexor, 400mg Wellbutrin, 2mg Risperdal.
I'm on 225 Effexor XR, 150 Wellbutrin SR, and 30 ADDerall. My pdoc said I could only go up to 225 Effexor XR. Is this because the regular and XR forms have different limits. I believe I've read of people taking much more. I wonder if I got up to 300, would I feel less sleepy?
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