Posted by harry b. on February 25, 2000, at 0:02:25
In reply to Harry b, posted by Janet on February 24, 2000, at 20:51:54
> Dear Harry, how did the appt. with the psychologist go? I think you should insist on going to hospital as now seems to be a good time and it's what you want. Take Care Jan
Actually, not too good. He accused me of having
a big 'pity party' for myself and kept asking
what the payoff was. I realize that some form
of direct confrontation like this is a part of
therapy, but I think the timing was wrong. My
questions about hospitalization and leave of
absence from work (short term disability) were
met with vague answers, refering to lack of
social interaction and such. It seems so
frustrating. I hurt, I feel wounded, and I want
and need a safe haven for awhile.I see my pdoc on Monday. I will try to keep it
together until then. After that I will have to
make a decision.On another note, I finally called my friend this
evening. He has become someone that I do not
know. The things we had developed, trust, care,
etc, are gone. Did I tell you that he isn't/wasn't
'only' a friend? He is 30 yrs older than I am
and he is/was also my father figure for the past
10 years. My father died when I was 5yr. I admired
him and tried to emulate him. His rejection of me
is a lot more complicated than I can explain.
And this complication, my friends, happened AFTER
I had begun therapy & ADs again.Wish me well, & I truly wish the best for all of you.
harry
poster:harry b.
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