Posted by Leah on February 19, 2000, at 11:13:25
Hi everyone,
I'm trying to figure out whether or not I need to get treatment or support for alcohol abuse. On the down side, there are things that indicate to me that it is a problem for me, and on the up side, things that tell me I don't have a problem at all. I'll start with the down side. When I drink, I often overindulge. On two occasions, I drank to the point of possible alcohol poisoning. I felt like my heart briefly stopped beating. I fell down. In a split second, I began to pray for my life. It was enornmously frightening, but, ironically, I often feel very self-destructive when I overindulge. A part of me is wishing something drastic would happen and wipe me out. (I don't drive drunk, though. I don't want the bad karma of having hurt anyone.)
On the upside, I often go a month or so without drinking or craving it at all. When I do drink, I don't always overindulge. I don't black out when I get drunk. I haven't had any major repercussions from drinking, for instance, with the law or with relationships.
I have tried posting a similar message in an AA type forum, but regreted it because I did not feel they were unbiased.
I suffer from depression and anxiety which I do not feel are related to the use of alcohol.
poster:Leah
thread:22480
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