Posted by torchgrl on February 18, 2000, at 0:49:24
In reply to Re: Vesper--Go to the hospital, posted by vesper on February 17, 2000, at 18:26:32
The study I participated in was at UCLA, through the Neuropsychiatric Institute--I really liked the woman psychiatrist that I had to talk to several times, but when I agreed to participate in a discussion involving some of the other doctors there, I got paired up with a man who was definitely more researchy, which made me VERY uncomfortable. I'm usually pretty receptive to talking with psychiatrists, but I don't think I would have wanted to listen to anything he said if I were stuck with him as my prescriber--I'd probably have ignored him and done what I felt like doing, anyway. Finding someone you can connect with is definitely important!
I can understand not wanting to check yourself into a hospital; it sounds a bit daunting, although I've contemplated it before. It sounds like those things that you don't want to talk about are probably the things you need to talk about in order to get through this in one piece. No one can force you to talk if you don't want to, but it might relieve some of the pain and anger to at least start to talk about it and stop carrying it around with you like this. Whenever I've had urges to self-mutilate or bang my head against the wall or whatever, it's usually because there's something painful I'm dealing with that I can't find another way to release other than lashing out at myself, kind of trying to counteract the inner pain with outer pain. If that sounds like what you're dealing with, I've also found strenuous exercise to help release somewhat (walking, running, stairmaster, Tae Bo)... Obviously, the hospital would be the safest environment if you're actually to the point of cutting and wanting to continue, though. I'm just trying to think of something you can do to help even a little if you're that dead set against it...
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