Posted by Michael on February 7, 2000, at 17:28:51
Suicide..... Seems like a quiet place, thought about
it alot today. Pain is so bad. I have appts. with SSA
for disibility retirement.
Pain meds suck, although they help alot, cannot keep a
straight head, foggy,lethargic,nothing stays, forgetful,
But always think of suicide..... way out of here.
Couldn't finish a shower without looking at my guns.
Im scared for myself. Just go to sleep like all of the
overdoses. scared it wont work. Im scared, yeah really
scared. I see my family doc tomorrow, he knows my
severe depression, I gotta get help.SCARED TO DEATH....
poster:Michael
thread:20701
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