Posted by amanda s on February 5, 2000, at 11:31:39
I am not sure if this is a symtom of being bi-polar. When I took prozac years ago, I did'nt have a problem being confident about what I was saying to someone and I actually had a great self-esteem. I cannot take prozac anymore. I am on lamictal, it helps my moods. I have always felt inadequate towards my husband, children,brothers and sister-in-laws. I think I have poor judgement about decisions that concern my children. Being extravagant or yelling at them when I think they are being unreasonable. When my mother died a year ago, I decided to enjoy life to the fullest. We started to go on vacations to fun places with the kids. As you can imagine being bi-polar and wanting to be extravagant. I do like to shop and spend money, it is a high,but I feel alot of guilt. That is another symtom I have (guilt). It is unnecessary guilt. I apologize to everyone all the time and I don't even need to. I am very kind to everyone I meet,but have a hard time showing my family that same kind of kindness. I do like to be in control of alot of things and get upset if the situation gets out of control. My husband says I was just spoiled as a child. He has a hard time understanding what I live with day to day. One other thing my mind feels like it constantly has clutter filled with it and I can not focus. Iam taking lamictal and nothing else at the moment except for a half of a xanax at night. When I talk to anyone I hesitate because I can't think of the word I need to say. MY brain is turning to mush. Do any of you have any of these experiences. Thanks
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