Posted by Rose on January 25, 2000, at 0:49:52
In reply to good blues and marijuana saved my life, posted by george o on January 17, 2000, at 1:40:38
George, I have to very much agree with you. I have suffered from chronic depression which has been so severe at times I have tried to kill myself 3 times from it, and have been hospitalized 4 times in my 23 years. Doctors don't understand, and often don't fully prescribe the proper medications. There have been times when the only tool I have had to keep myself from attempting great physical harm or suicide upon myself is to drink alcohol and take drugs, especially anything of an opiate derivative. They relax me and provide me with a sense of well-being, that I was not fortunate enough to be born with. As far as I am concerned, I do not care if I am an addict, as long as I am alive, and in relative comfort, and non-misery. I heard it once described in a song this way, and I very much consider this to be my, "time off from hell," when all of my muscles can finally relax, and my thoughts can stop racing and obsessing and worrying about pointless things, and my depression can simply cease to be a factor, and I can just BE in peace....and for all of you who judge, live a day in the mind of someone with a chemical imbalance.
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