Posted by bigbertha on January 4, 2000, at 0:12:37
In reply to Transition Trouble, posted by Noa on January 3, 2000, at 16:02:46
> I have difficulty with other transitions as well. Anyone else have this problem?
oh boy do I! I still owe a teacher an assignment
from over 1 year ago - he passed me so I could
graduate (something my shrink and I are working on)
But what a jerk I turned out to be!!
However, James' note fits me at least, because I have ADD +
depression + anxiety (esp. with social phobia,
perfectionism, yaddayaddayada..).The transition thing: I am QUITE/currently
familiar with the chaotic mess scenario - apparently
it's related to perfectionism and is also a form of
protection (messy house is the "moat" to keep people
away) for social phobics.I don't know how long you've been in treatment but for
right now: STOP beating yourself up over this! Your most recent
post indicates that you have: #1 just returned from holiday "lalla
land", which can drag out all sorts of regrets/fears
even when you have a good time;#2 you're still working
on the right meds for you; #3 you're back in a work
environ. You have a lot on your plate right now and
even Superman couldn't handle this. Although I agree
with the ideas from the other posts, you might not
be strong enough yet to face the "mess monster" and suffer
yet another defeat. But Noa, that day WILL come. I have
been in therapy almost two years and I have kept my
bedroom and kitchen clean for the past 4 months. Yet I am still
chronically late, worried about what others think about me, etc.
One day you WILL be able to say "I'm cleaning the fridge today. It
might be the only thing I ever clean but I'm doing it."
And that fridge will be your pride and joy. Soon other things
will follow, but don't give up hope.Be gentle with yourself
bb
poster:bigbertha
thread:17918
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