Posted by Noa on August 25, 2006, at 20:46:10
In reply to facing the Beast.... » Shar, posted by finelinebob on August 23, 2006, at 1:51:25
Hey there.
Just had a yen to pop in and say hi. It's been a long time.
I'm glad to hear you're back in NYC, Bob!
One thought I have is would it be useful to examine your expectations for yourself as you 'face the beast'? I mean, there's the stress of the anniversary and then there might also be the additional stress of expecting something from yourself in terms of your readiness, and the implicit self-judgment that might sneak in there for not being where you might wish to be in trauma recovery. Can you reflect on what you might be expecting from yourself and whether you can take on an accepting attitude toward wherever you happen to be at this point in time?
Another thought is would it help to get the camera out and spend time that day (or before/after the day) taking photos of NY in recovery--NY still alive and kickin, etc.? I'm thinking the camera could be a healthy way of removing yourself as an observer, and getting you to focus on the images of the city as it is back to life again--the city as a tenacious survivor.
Hang in there.
Noa
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