Posted by NikkiT2 on June 22, 2004, at 6:09:35
In reply to Where IS everyone?!, posted by Shar on June 21, 2004, at 23:59:08
I'm returning slightly from my "PB Holiday".. I'm not feeling as aggresive now so think I can start talking to people again without facing a block!
In theory, things are better than ever in my life.. And I feel very very lucky to be in the position I am in right now.. I'm not suicidal which is wonderful.. but that also means I need to make plans for the future which is very scary.. I don't think people who haven't been suicidal can understand how scary NOT being suicidal can be!!! I never needed to really plan for the future as I wasn't going to ahve one.. but now I need to start facing up to things..
But I'm very excited about my new job.. I really hope I can live up to their expectations and make a success of this.
And I'm craving junk food *giggles* I htink thatd connected to the giving up of smoking.. but damn I want to eat rubbish food!! MacDonalds here I come!!!! (shhh, don't tell hubby!)!!
Hang in there everyone.. hang on tight... I'm sending lots of thoughts out to everyone..
Nikki xx
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thread:358846
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