Posted by Racer on May 9, 2004, at 15:29:38
In reply to Re: Finally something positive from me -- kinda » Racer, posted by finelinebob on May 9, 2004, at 12:52:19
> Good for you, Racer! Being one who has put himself through every emotional state EXCEPT anger when it was anger I was really feeling, I know how much of an eye-opener it can be when you finally get to it.
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> The trick is to not give it back up ... if you're anything like me ;^)
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Heheheh -- do I see you in my mirror every morning? Yes, that is the trick, and that's where I fall apart. I already know, based on my track record, that if my therapist says something invalidating tomorrow, I'll back off, and turn it back on myself -- and make myself BELIEVE it even though I *know* on some level that it just plain ain't so. Um... Isn't that why I'm in therapy in the first place? Because I allow that to happen? Because I can't or don't stand up for myself, make myself heard? Take on what others tell me? So, um, tell me again how this is helping me?
> Ridiculous is the last thing I'd say about your feelings about changing therapists. Those feelings are perfectly understandable. Again, this is just me, but if I was as angry as you are, I'd turn it inwards ... even if any rational person would say the OTHER person deserved to be the target of that anger. But being "rational", unfortunately, has nothing to do with it.
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> aCk! 8*P
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> So don't think it's ridiculous, if you can avoid it, okay? Yes, it's not CORRECT -- YOU are not the cause or the source of that failure. But I think you've got enough on your plate without feeling ridiculous about feeling this way. Don't take on any blame that belongs on someone else's plate. If you know feeling that way is wrong, see if you can spend some of the energy that anger can generate by taking your sights off yourself and putting them on the real target.
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> hang in there
> flbI posted to you over on Psychology in response to your post about Rationality. I hope some of it gets through to Rod -- why do I always feel he's stirring the pot? -- and I think it's a great topic. Thank you for responding here. I wish I felt any confidence in myself in being able to communicate with the therapist tomorrow. (You know, it seems as if there's something fundamentally wrong with the process if I say things like that, doesn't it?)
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