Posted by Racer on May 2, 2004, at 9:23:23
In reply to Re: Fear, anxiety, all the usual suspects..., posted by SLS on May 2, 2004, at 9:06:28
Thank you. I guess you've read the earlier posts, so you know about my medical concerns? They're actually kinda easing this right now, because they're immediate and I can see the problems. Having a focus is always good. I'm fortunate enough to have two: one being the really sucky patient care; the second being the worry that it is cancer.
(For an idea of the second one, no one will give me any hard information. I called someone I know at the NCI, and even he wouldn't tell me more than, "Gee, don't think about it!" Hello? How can I not think about it? I do know that a malignancy on the liver is a Bad Thing, and that the timing of the diagnosis doesn't matter much because most primary liver tumors are inoperable, and if it's a secondary tumor, well, that means it's pretty well metastasized. Guess what? I can figure out what that means all by myself without even having that MD. I'd feel better having hard facts.)
And Scott -- I'll take all the prayers I can get, with thanks. I also appreciate your support with the med questions. (Especially since it's deeply ingrained in me that symptoms like anxiety are "only" psychological, so they don't count. I never realized how much anxiety I suffered, but I'm finally starting to see it now. You helped a lot with that. Thank you.)
Thanks for everything.
And what's going on with you? Anything you could use a little support for? It doesn't sound as if you're in a great place right now? I'll offer you anything I've got -- except the cat.
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