Posted by Racer on March 24, 2004, at 20:32:48
OK, today I'm just wondering why it's so important to keep trying. Can anyone tell me any reason to keep banging my head against the wall this way, when I don't seem to get better, and even when I get some relief it's so temporary? I'm so afraid of ending up this bad, with no way out. Can anyone tell me why I need to keep trying?
If you go to a bakery every day, trying to buy a loaf of bread, and they never have any bread, but you keep going anyway, wouldn't that be absurd? That's how I'm feeling. Even if the good doctor manages to find a drug that works for me, it's going to make me fat, my husband will use that as an excuse to reject me some more, and I'll have all the rest of the side effects that go with these damn drugs -- and then it'll stop working, anyway, and I'll be right back here where I started from. Why do I want to do that?
Plain statement: the only reason I'm here right now is that I don't know of an easy way not to be.
poster:Racer
thread:327934
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/2000/20040213/msgs/327934.html