Posted by noa on November 22, 2003, at 16:40:32
In reply to Re: Noa: Lumptonia...slumptonia, posted by coral on November 22, 2003, at 11:53:07
I slumped/lumped/slothed/slugged/burrowed again today. Up at 9--beautiful weather, gorgeous sun--but back in bed at 10 and stayed til after 4. Dunno why. Still haven't gotten back into the light routine, either.
I feel guilty because I know I have in my control to do things to feel more alert and energetic. My depression has been under control but I'm back to slumping on weekends. And I know too much slumping makes me depressed. I feel guilty because I know there were times when I couldn't make myself feel better and I know there are others who are suffering with depression beyond their control. So why do I forego the beautiful sunshine and just right temperatures that I love to experience in favor of sleeping and lying in bed to the point of causing my back to ache? It feels self-defeating.
I'm hoping to get more out of the day tomorrow. I do have to get out at least later in the day tomorrow, as I have dinner plans with some friends to celebrate one friend's birthday. But I'd like myself to get up and get out earlier, too. And get some of the many "must do's" done. At least some of them. And enjoy the nice weather.
Inertia has always been a problem for me.
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