Posted by Rach on September 8, 2003, at 1:18:58
In reply to Re: Roll Call..Nikki, all, posted by Deb R on September 6, 2003, at 3:23:47
Most of my internet access comes from uni or my boyfriend's place, and I don't want to access this site from either computer, so that's why I'm absent a lot. Plus things are just really hard. My nan died the other week, and everything is just getting on top of me. I can't remember what its like to have a boring life. Not that I want a boring life - I just want all the exciting good things to start happening. But a boring life is much prefered to all the badness that's been going on this year. Too much has happened. It's all too much. I don't get enough time to deal with one thing before something else horrible happens, and so its all built up into a phenomenal bubble of hell.
On a good note - I am eating healthy and getting back to my old size. Yay. But sleeping has gone to hell, too. Either I don't fall asleep at all (my usual) or I'm starting to wake up, completely alert, between 4am and 5. That's a new thing for me. Weird. There's something going on in the world right now. It's just so tumultuous. Like this afternoon - we got evacuated from the building my class was taking place in at uni. Last year two people were killed in a shooting in the building (its 11 storeys - the highest building at uni). I didn't hang around to see why we were evacuated today. Just got out and left. It's bizarre. Like last week. Funeral monday, uni exam tuesday, driving on 'holiday' for three days wed, thur, fri, but instead ended up bedridden with what I was convinced was a tumour in my head (but I think it was just a 3-day migraine) working Sat plus my sister's engagement party Sat night, sick as sick as sick can be all day Sun, evacuated from uni Monday. This is what my life is continually like. It's ridiculous and I can't handle it.
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