Posted by Phil on May 12, 2003, at 8:52:36
In reply to I swear that danged pea pickin' whippersnapper, posted by shar on May 7, 2003, at 22:55:10
Greg-Shar, I gots a big black dog chasing me and taking bites out of my butt.
Since I work for the state and they discovered a small deficit of $10 billion, my once stable job with pretty good benefits is now an unstable job(100's laid off so far)with benefits that are so bad, state workers have walked out of meetings with HR and the BAD co. that is covering us.
One example: You buy all maintenance drugs mail order three months at a time and you pay for all three months. If your doc writes Dispense as Written, they will give you the generic anyway. If you want name brand, you pay the generic copay(all copays went up)and the difference in price between generic and name. There are people at the state on 20 meds!!
Anyway, this stuff triggered my depression and it's been incredible painful. I'm also about to turn 50 and I don't have shit.
Told my doc that since I was diagnosed over 20 years ago, everything in my life has suffered, jobs especially but I also can't or don't want to sustain a relationship. I've pretty much cut everyone off in my life including this board.
She asked me if I blamed myself for having depression. I think my answer was does it really matter?
I've always somehow made it thru with depression but I'm getting real tired of fighting it.
I'm too chicken shit to commit suicide so I'm not going anywhere, but I probably won't be around here either. Maybe down the road.
One more example: ER went from $50. to $100. plus 20%. So, if I had a serious heart attack, I'd be in debt the rest of my life cause when you are transferred to the hospital, it's $100.00 a day copay plus 20%.Later
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