Posted by Greg on March 9, 2003, at 11:58:08
I've been feeling suicidal for a while now. Yes me, Mr. Put on a Happy Face. Why? Because everyday I get up and I'm so fatigued that I can barely function. I go to work, manage to fake my way and then come home and go right to bed and sleep until it's time to get up and do it again. I've been sleeping on the average of 12 hours a day, sometimes more. On weekends, I'll sleep the 12 and then take a 6 hour nap. Some life huh? I don't why this is happening.
I went to a new doctor Friday. I woke up Friday morning and simply couldn't function. I called in sick, I hope I still have a job. The new doctor took a urine sample, 4 tubes of blood, and chest xrays. He said the urine was clean and the xrays looked good so he'll eliminate lung cancer for now...woohoo. He detected some tenderness in an area which I won't go into detail about and started me on the strongest anti-biotic available. He says this is just a shot in the dark as he thinks my real problem is either that I have anemia, or a problem with my thyroid. He says my symptoms are typical of both. I won't know anything until Wednesday.
If neither of these are the problem, I don't know what I'll do. I've been trying my best to get healthier. I'm off all of the pain meds completely. Despite the back and knee pain, I try to walk at least a mile everyday, I've been taking vitamins, I'm eating better foods and at regular times. I was starting to feel better, but then this hit. I can't live a life this way and I won't, and I won't ask my family and friends watch me waste away.
I'm sorry if this is hard for some of you to read, it's hard for me to say. But I've known all of you for a very long time and you are my family. I just wanted you to know where I was at. I'll keep trying to find an answer, but I don't know for how much longer.
I love you all,
Greg
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